March 30, 2008A letter to my babyKeeley Louise, You never lived. Keeley Louise, you didn’t have a chance. No nourishment given. Nor love to return. Keeley Louise, I wish you were here. It was meant for you. Life was meant for you. The heavens were waiting, when you weren’t ready. No hint was given. No warning or preparation. I wanted to hold you tight in my arms. Feed you and warm you, but now I will never know your emotions. I will never see your face or eyes or nose or feet, hands, nails, or knees. I will never hear your cries or see your tears. Your first steps are only in my dreams. Your voice is lost in the air. I will never know your boyfriends, best friends, or children. I will never be able to braid your hair, teach you how to put on make up, or give you the dreaded “talk.” I can’t ever take you shopping for clothes and toys, school supplies and hair bows. I wish I could see you right now. Sleeping silently in your crib, clenching your blanket with drool coating it. I wish you could hear my voice tell you how much I love you, and how you we’re my favorite treasure. I held you once, but you were taken away. I saw your skeleton trying to form and your lifeless figment lying in the palm of my hand. I hope you are being treated well, and know how much I love and miss you. Don’t forget me. Keeley Louise, You never lived. Keeley Louise, you didn’t have a chance. No nourishment given. Nor love to return. Keeley Louise, I wish you were here. I love you, Mommy
I miscarriaged last april. Yes, i was pregnant. She died after just 5 weeks of being pregnant. =[
Posted on 03/30/2008 9:18 PM Comments (0)
October 2, 2007so if anyof you remember my old story with me gerard and frank....this is a continuing of it. without it turning out to all be a dream. if you didnt read that. i would recomend reading that before this. thanks. enjoy
I went to the bathroom and looked out the window. I saw Gerard slap Frank across the face and walk to his house. Frank had fallen to the ground crying. I was worried of what happened. I decided to go out and get Frank to come inside. I opened the door and he looked over at me. He had tears dripping down his face. I hugged him and pulled him of the ground. I kissed him on his lips as I brushed his tears away. He smiled and walked into the house. Mom was sitting in the living room with Malle. I felt bad for making every ones day terrible for not telling Gerard before he got home. Malle looked at Frank with sympathy. I went over and sat on the other couch in silence. No one talked for a few minutes until mom decided to talk. “Well, I think you three should go to frank’s house for the weekend.” She looked over at Frank waiting for an answer. He nodded and we all walked up stairs to get what we need for the weekend. After packing a few things for Malle and sending her down stairs to wait, Frank and I went into my room. I shut the door behind us and looked at him. He was looking at me with his huge hazel eyes. We stood there for about 3 minutes staring at each other before I went over to my dresser and grabbed a few things. Frank came up behind me and kissed my shoulder. A small smile grew on my face, but went away when he stepped back. I shoved all of my clothes and other things into a bag and walked down stairs, Frank following close behind. I grabbed Malle’s hand, kissed my mom on the cheek, and we left. When we arrived at Frank’s house Malle ran inside yelling “Grandma!” We smiled at each other and walked in. Mrs. Iero was hugging my baby tight with a huge smile on her face. I was nice seeing at least some ones parent appreciating her. Frank’s mom picked up Malle saying how big she was getting. She looked over at us and nodded her head meaning: “get some alone time. I got this.” I smiled in thanks and pulled Frank to his room.
Posted on 10/02/2007 8:55 PM Comments (0)
April 21, 2007New story. dont know what its called though
Alice. Is my name. I live in Brownsburg, Indiana with my mom, dad, sister, and two brothers. My family is great. We are very close and our parents let us do anything. When I say that I literally mean it. Well actually they don’t want us to smoke or do drugs, but that’s a good thing. My parents met when they were in middle school. Dad was 13,almost 14, and Mom was 13. My age. Mom said that she watched him walk by her bus, and walk by her classes, but was too scared to say anything. So she added him on some website call myspace and began talking to him. Within four days they were together. They “fell madly in love” is what they tell us and hope it will happen to us someday. I for example have been off and on with this boy, Aiden. He’s gorgeous! But I can never seem to keep a relationship past two weeks with him. Dad says he had the same problem with a girl named, Chyna, but got dumped by her finally and mom found him. I wish that I could finally end it with Aiden, but it’s so hard because I have no other boy to lean back on! Dad says I just need to get rid of the boy who’s broken my heart so many times and to find someone who can mend it. Only if I could. Jade, my older brother, is the closest thing to me. He is always their for me and knows how to help me if I have a problem. When people see us and don’t know who we are, think that Jade and I date. It’s really funny. Just because we hold hands and hug and give each other family kisses. But everyone who knows us just thinks its adorable. I don’t know why though. Jade is the funniest thing. When he does something wrong he pretends to cry and whine until someone says it’s okay, then he’s happy as can be. Me and him are so close because I was born only 18 months after he was. We grew up together, learned together, cried together, and even bathed together. People thought we were twins because we acted the exact same way and pretty much looked the same. We both have dark brown hair and hazel eyes. We have small figures, but I am short and he is much taller now. When we lived in the apartment, Jade and I had to share a room. It was fine since we like the exact same things, as we do now. We could be twins or a happy couple, if not related, but we are best friends and that will never change. Starr, my baby sister, is the most annoying thing in the world. She is 6 years old and bugs the living shit out of me. She is always asking me: “What’s that?” “Why is that there?” “What are you doing?” “Can I do that too?” I cant stand it! When I have Aiden over she is always coming in my room and bugging us. Mom always makes her get out so I don’t hit her, because she doesn’t want Starr to get beat like she did. Starr is not the best name for her. It’s more like, Black Hole of annoyance. You may laugh at that, but is true. She’s as evil and mysterious as a Black Hole and annoying at the same time. Landon, Starr’s sweet twin brother, has the most gentle heart. You’d never guess him and Starr are twins. He has the quietest voice and doesn’t talk a lot. Mom says that’s how she was when she was his age. All he does is draw his heart out and sit in his room with one of our dogs, Bear. He has so many stuffed animals throughout his room. It’s adorable! Landon’s not only a sweet heart, but has great manners. Please, thank you, may I, etc. Those are only a few of his manners that he learned on this own. Doesn’t my family sound entertaining? Yeah, I know it does.
Posted on 04/21/2007 8:50 PM Comments (0)
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Posted on 01/25/2007 8:20 PM Comments (3)
January 11, 2007Mikey Matt___10Mikey's P.O.V. I heard Karma and Maddie yelling at someone. Not just someone, Matt. Why is he back? I told him to leave. Whatever. I'm going to see what's going on. I sat up. Gripping my stomake in pain and pulled myself up. I limped up the stairs, and when I turned into the living room the loud arguing stopped and everyone stared at me. "What's going on?" Iasked in a raspy voise. "Nothing. Just go lay back down, hun." Karma said, looking like she was about to cry. "What the HELL is going on! Tell me!" I demanded. "Matt. You tell your boyfriend(italics) what you did while you were out." Maddie demanded also. He shook his head no. Maddie got even more mad. " Matt if you don't tell your boyfriend that you had sex with another guy I will!" Her eyes went wide,as did mine. She coverd her mouth and Matt ran up stairs crying. I broke down crying, falling onto the floor cupping my face into my hands. "Noo!!" I screamed. Karma began to cry with me. "I found this in his coat pocket." maddie said handing me a peice of paper. I unfolded it and it read: Matt, I tore the note into amillion little peices and threw them across the room. "I didn't do anything wrong. Why would he do this to me?" I sobbed. "I don't know Mikey baby. Do you want me to talk to him?" Maddie asked. "No I will. Right now."I said sniffleing. I shuffled up the stairs lazily and knocked on Maddie's closed door. "Matt! Let me in." "Noo!!" "Please, Matty Bear. I want to know why you would do this to me." The nob turned and he let me in. After I walked in he shut it and locked it again. "Why, Matty? Why?" "Im stressed okay!" "How are you stressed?" "Well..My sister's pregnant, My boyfriend is being a dick hole, and all this shit." He said not making eye contact. "Oh." I murmerd, looking down at my twidleing fingers. "Im really sorry Matt. Im just mad at how you are acting about Maddie. She made a mistake and there's nothing we can do." "I want her to get an abortion." "Don't start with that shit again. That's what started all of this non-sence." "I know." "Then don't bring it up anymore." "But-" "No. It's her flesh and blood, yes some of yours too, but its none of your business . It's also her body. I know your her brother, but still its her baby thats coming and you should be proud of that." "I am" "Then why don't you show that?" "I don't know" he cryed falling on to my chest, soaking my shirt. "Please don't cry."I whisperd. "So whose this 'Jackie' guy?" He looked up at me answerd."Ummm, Jack came over to me and we talked alittle. Then, we went back to his house and andtalked more, then stuff happend. Which you know about." I only nodded. "Are we okay?" "Your still in theditch. Notas deep before, but still." I answerd.He nodded also and we left the room with a hug. We walked back down to the living room, where Maddie and Karma were sitting. "So, is everything okay now?" I glared at matt and said "For now." "That's good. I guess." Karma said nodding. "Rocky Horror Picture show anyone?" Maddie suggested. Everyone agreed. She put it in and pressed play. We all did the 'Time Warp' and sang along to ever song. Halloween is soon so I suggested we be charicters from the movie for Halloween. Karma agreed to be Columbia since Maddie has a growing tummy, so Maddie decided on Magenta. I called dibs on Dr. Frank-N-Furter so Matt didn't have much of a desion, but he decided to be Riff Raff. This will be an interesting Halloween.
Posted on 01/11/2007 3:02 PM Comments (2)
January 3, 2007Mikey and Matt_______9It's been a month since Aiden passed and everything is different.Jenni cut all of her hair off, dropped out of school, and wont leave Aiden's room.(it was never clean.ewww)Karma and Ryan are dating, and the most shocking think of all, that I just heard about 2 weeks ago. Maddie. She's. PREGNANT!!! Matt was pretty mad, but is okay with it now. I cant wait for little one to be inthe family. Mom wasn't to happy about that, because she new that she knew she would have to take care of it during school. Anyway. On with it.
I know I sound like im losing intrist in him, but im not. We had a huge fight last night and he made me sleep on the couch. I know we sound like a newly married couple. But I dont care. "Mikey, What went on with you and Matt lastnight?" Karma asked as we walked down the sidewalk. "We just had a little disagreement. Thats all." "Disagreement?" Maddie questioned. "God!! It was NOTHING, OKAY!!!" I yelled, regreting it afterwards. Karma's eyes became wide, then she turned away. Maddie didnt do anything. She just kept walking like nothing happend. When we got to school I walked in, desereting Maddie and Karma. I heard Karma yelling for me but she stopped. I got to my locker and rushed to Homeroom. RINNNNGG!! The bell signaling for me to go lunch sounded. I walked to my locker, put my stuff away, and decided to sit outside for lunch for a change. I layed down under a large tree and closed my eyes. A few minutes later I heard 'shhh'ing and the grass being shuffled. Before I knew it a foot kicked me in the stomak. I screamed in pain. Another kick. Then a few punches. And more kicks. I gave up on screaming, but began sobbing. "Thats what you get fag!" a guy yelled, then spat on me. I heard a roar of laughter. I could taste blood. Out of no were I began vometing blood. And afterwards passed out. When I woke up I was in the arms of someone with ice packs all over me. I moved my head slightly to see who it was. It was Matt. I closed my eyes again. Not wanting to see him right now. "Mikey?" "Hmm?" "What happed to you today?" "Got the shit beat out of me.What did you think? I ran into a tree?!?"I remarked, sarcasticly. "Mikey, stop. Im sorry about last night I didn't mean to yell at you." I rolled my eyes in resonce. "Mikey!!" "Leave." "What?" "Leave.Don't come back until you understand how much you hurt me." I said sitting up, with much difficulty. Matt's POV: I stormed out of the house. My sister got knoked up bye a guy she's know for a month and now my BOYFRIEND kicks me out. This sucks! I walked down the side walk for awhile and I found a bench. I layed back on it and shut my eyes. I heard someone sit next to me. "You okay man?" "hmm?"I opend my eyes to see a boy who looked like Mikey, but with all black hair and blue eyes."Yeah I'm fine."After I said that rain began to pour on us. He smiled at me as I sat up and shook my hair. "I'm Jack" "I'm Matt" I said shaking his hand."I live a few blocks that way" i pointed to the left. He nodded. "I just moved here with my older brother and dad. We are here to visit my uncle." he said blinking the rain from is eyelashes. "That's cool." I nodded. "Why are you walking all alone and not with your brother?" "I dont know. I dont really care for him." "Oh I understand." "What are you doing out here alone?"he questiond me. "Oh just wanted to walk around." I'm a terrible lier, but he nodded. I think he knew I was lieing. He started to scoot near me. I didn't move becuase I didn't think he would do anything. But he started to lean towards me. I stll didn't budge. Suddenly his lips crashed against mine. I didn't move, but I didn't kiss back. He put his hand on my shoulder, leaning in more. I didn't mean to, but I started kissing back. It was nice and Ididnt feel bad. Well maybe alittle. He pulled away and smiled. I smiled alittle. "Well, Matt. I have to go home and I live down that way too." "Hey can I hang with you? I'm not alowed home yet." Jack gave me a wierd face, but said it was fine. "No ones home though. Jesse, my older brother, is out at the mall and my dad is visiting my uncle." I nodded. We past my house and I didnt even look back at it. I didn't want to think about what happend. "Nice cds." Thanks" he giggle. I could help, but smile. We sat on his bed talking for a few minutes. About nothing. And he kissed me again. It wasnt an innocent kiss either. It was a total makeout sestion. That led to touching. And the touching brought us to sex. It felt great, but I felt terrible about it. Right afterwards I got dressed and ran home. The rain had stopped and Jack gave me his number just incase we felt like talking. "Where the fuck have you been?" Karma asked. I didn't answer just took off my shoes and walked over too them. "Eww you smell like, a prostitute-Matt why were gone so long?" Maddie questioned. I didn't respond. "Oh My God Matt! You didn't?!" "I did."
Posted on 01/03/2007 6:28 PM Comments (3)
December 28, 2006{original}Mikey//Baby Is This Love For RealMatt{slash}________8"How did he attempt suicide? And how did you find out?"
"I-I'm re-re-really sorry about A-A-Aiden." she managed to choke out, but right after she collapsed on the floor next to me. "Mikey, T-this c-could have been you! This i-is the reason I m-made you stop-" she sniffled then continued."So you wouldn't be on the verge of-of-of dieing." I didn't say anything I just continued to cry. I over heard Jenni say. "Mr. Cooke?" "Yes." "Your brother, Aiden, may not make it." The docter said hanging his head in shame. Jenni started to scream and sob agian "Well, Why not!?!" Ryan snapped. "Massive blood loss. And the seizure may have damaged his nerves. Has he had seizures all his life?" "Yeah. Ever since he was 7. I think." "Okay. Thank you. Would you all like to see him?" everyone nodded and walked slowly to the room he was in. When we got in the room I had noticed that Aiden looked almost lifeless and paler than any ghost I would have imagind.But he wasnt a ghost, not yet atleast. Jenni walked over by him and pulled up a chair. She took ahold of his hand and started to cry. She stopped and looked at her hand. I looked at Aiden's hand. He had gotten a grip onto her hand without being awake. Or atleast I didn't think he was awake. A few minutes went by. Nothing. But suddenly he began to shake and shake harder and faster! Ryan called for a nurse. He was having another seizure. The nurse ran in trying to hold him down.His heart rate was getting faster and faster. Then it stopped. Just a long 'beep'. A docter came in. He checked Aiden's pulse and shook his head sadly. Jenni ran to me, hugged me tight, and began to cry. I held her in my arms, staring at Aiden's dead body. The docter pushed us out of Aiden's room. Jenni still in my arms. We were at the funeral. As soon as someone said "Its very sad that he had to go so younge.He was only 16 and could have done better." I walked home. I couldn't stand people talking about the dead. Like they still don't have feelings.
Posted on 12/28/2006 2:51 PM Comments (4)
December 11, 2006(Mikey)//Baby Is This Love For Real?(Matt){slash}________7
"Madaline!" I chimed. "Wake up and play with me." she grumbled and turned the other way. I climed into bed with her and shoved her a bit. She turned over and her eyes were wide. "What are you doing?" "Laying. What dose it look like Im doing?" "No, I mean why are in my room, non the less, my bed?" "I'm bored and wanted someone to play with me" "Go play with Matt." "He's asleep." "What time is it?" "3:30" "God, Mikey! You are an annoyance."she said finally getting up. She put on a pair of sweat pants and tee-shirt and sat on the floor. "Don't use anything from my middle name referring to me." I said in a grumpy tone. She giggled."We should decorate your room, Jone" she glared at me but agreed. We put up some of her posters, set out her, The Nightmare Before Christmas, figurines and stuffed toys, set up her cd player, put her cd's in the rack she has, and layed out her little rug and we were done with that at about 4:40. It pasted by time but not alot. Maddie and me went downstairs to make some coffee, but my mom beat us to it. "What are you doing up so early you two?" "Mikey woke me up." "Hey! It's not my fault, Ghost woke me up to go out side." I said defending myself. Mom laughed and nodded. "So Karma told me you met some kids to hang out with?" "Yeah" Maddie said rocking back and forth smileing. Mom looked at me confused then to me. " She has a boyfriend. He's pretty cool." "That's good. You should invite them over today. Later on ofcourse." considering it's only 5:00 A.M. I got Maddie and cup of coffee and for me also. We had about 3 cups each when it was 6:30 and I decided to go wake up Matt even though it's the first day of the weekend. "When did you get up?"I asked. He kissed me, then parted. "Mmmm....That dosn't matter"He kissed me again while zipping my jacket. "Matt stop. Almost everyone is awake." "Almost?" "Karma's sleeping." "Oh ok." He said climbing off of me. He put his arm around my waist scooting closer to me. "My mom said that we should invite everyone over today." "Everyone?" "You know. Everyone we met yesterday." "Oh thats cool." "Yeah. We should shower and get dressed." "Yay! We should take a shower together." matt said with a wink. I smiled, agreeing. We walked up the stairs, waving to mom and Maddie, while going up to the second floor. We walked in and Matt locked the door behind us. I turned on the water, waiting for it to get hot. When it was the right temperature, I started to get undressed. Matt was hesitating though. "What's wronge Matty?" I asked going over and hugging him. "Oh its nothing." he said kissing my nose."Just help me with this" He was pretending to struggle with his belt so that I would get it off for him. I pulled it off and kissed above his pant line. I began to unbotton his pant, I was so nervous. I unzipped them and gulped. Matt pulled my head so I was looking up at him. "You know if you dont want to you-" "I want to its just a shower right?" "Yeah." I kissed him and beganto pull his pants off. I finally got them off and he smiled. I stood up and we got into the shower. We stood there getting used to the water for a little bit, but Matt pulled me very close to him and kissed me. "It's getting pretty hot in here" He said in my ear "Do you want to get out?" "Lets go in our room" he said with a wink. I smiled and turned off the water.(we did was up before getting out)We went down to our room as fast as we could. When we got there I threw Matt on the bed, both of our towels dropping. We began to kiss. One thing let to another and I was no longer a virgin. It was amazing. I feel as if I was torn in half, but I loved it. We layed their in bed for another half hour. Then we heard foot steps upstairs and Karma yell for us to come up stairs. Matt got dressed and looked at me with pitty. I was laying there seeming almost lifeless. He came over and dropped on the bed. I whimperd from the sudden movement. "Mikey, If you didn't want to do it you should have said." "No, I really wanted to. Untill I found out much it would fucking hurt" Matt kissed me and helped me up, carefully. He helped me get dressed and we went up stairs where everyone was. Meaning everyone we met the otherday. Ghost was cuddled up, asleep, on Ryan's foot. It was cute. "You all live here?" Adam asked. "Yeah. It's a long story" Karma answerd. He nodded and wrapped an arm around Maddie. Me and Matt snuggled into the lounge chair and talked to Jenni. Aiden seemed really quite. It was kind of strange. He was just staring at his feet, which weren't as interesting as he was making them seem. "Jenni, Whats with Aiden? He's alittle quiet don't you think?"I asked "He has been quieter than usual. He's usally fun and rambunctious, but for the past week or so he's been downing on himself. He won't let me help and I don't want him to be alone to do anything stupid." she said sadly. "Oh. Im sorry." "It's alright. He'll be fine. I hope." I looked over at Matt. He looked sad. I felt bad for him. He was such a cute kid. Why would he want to down on himself? I bet he has the most perfect life ever, to have two brothers who care about him and a loving girlfriend. I mean, I was thinking of killing myself the day before school started, but Karma stopped me. She always knew when somthing great would happen for me and this time. It was Matt. Jenni, Ryan, Aiden, and Adam left about 5 hours later.A little after they left Karma got a phone call. "Hello?-Oh hey Ryan! Whats-Oh My God!!- Okay- Okay-We're coming." She hung up her phone, her eyes starting to water."Mom! Drive us to the hospital please!" "Why honey what's wrong?" "Just Drive us. NOW!!"that's when I knew somthing was terribly wrong. She never yells at mom. Never. "What happend?" I asked sitting beside him. "Aiden tryed to kill himself."
Posted on 12/11/2006 10:30 AM Comments (4)
December 3, 2006(Mikey)//Baby Is This Love For Real?(Matt){slash}____6When we walked in the door everyone was smileing, but Maddie's smile was a mile long. Me and Matt looked at eachother, not knowing what was going on. "Umm? Mom? Whats going on?" I asked "Well we all talked while you were out and I dont want Madaline and Matt living in an RV so....." She paused looking at Karma and Maddie "They are living with us. I already cleaned up the basment for them to stay in." "Uhh do I have to live in a basment?" Maddie asked descusted "Cant I stay with Karma." "Okay, Mikey, you move into the basment and stay with Matt. Atleast I dont have to watch you two do 'stuff' on my couch. Dont worry. All the stuff you will need is in the basment. So, Mikey start packing. Maddie, Matt, go get your things" My mom said , making everone happy. "Need help Mikey?" he asked kissing my cheek. "If you don't mind." I said with a puppy dog face. He smilled and began to take posters off of the wall, rolling them up. I was done packing all of my clothes so we moved on to my other stuff. About a half an hour later my room was empty except the bed, but the down side was we had to move Matt's stuff to the basement too. That took us about 20-30 minutes. Then we decorated. All together we finished in an hour and a half, which was good timing. We flopped down on our bed (it feels so good to say "our". it really dose) and let out breaths of relief. Matt looked over at me with a smile. "What are you smileing about?" I teased. "Its like we are married" he said with a giggle. "And how is that Matty?" I asked pulling him closer to me. "Well, we live together, we moved somewhere together, we love eachother and we have a pet." He said in a really cute voice. I giggled and kissed him. "I love you, Matty" "I love you too, Mikey Bear."He whisperd onto my lips. He was teasing me. I couldn't stand being teased so I crushed my lips against his. Matt started to get on me but I beat him to it. He put his hands around my waist and I played with his hair. He tugged on my shirt, wanting to get off. I broke from the kiss and pulled of my shirt, followed by his. He started to rub my back and my chest as I played with his belt trying to get it undone. But then Karma and Madaline came into the room. "Oh My God!" Karma said in discust."If this is what you are going to do on your first night living together, I don't want to know what will happen on the other nights." I face went hot and Matt's went red too. Maddie looked different in away. But I couldnt exactly figure it out. "Maddie? When did you get a hair cut?" Matt asked walking over to examine her hair. "Karma did it for me. Don't you like it?" "Yea its amazing" Matt said running his hands through it."Karma do somthing to my hair, anything but cut it." " You did Mikey's hair without cutting it" "Fine come on" she said grabbing his hand and running up the stairs. I started to follow but karma yelled. "Mikey! You have to wait till I'm done" I pouted and went back to my bed and layed down. Maddie came over and layed down next to me. "You are lucky for him to be your brother." I said looking over at her. She turned over so she was facing me and stared at me with those amazing purple eyes. "He's lucky to have found you." she said with a little smile. "What do you mean by that?" "Well, your sweet, amazing, funny, caring and totally hot!" she said but then she darted out "I mean hot for my brother, not me. I-I-I-I'm sorry." "Don't be sorry. If I wasn't gay or in love with your brother I would totally date you" I said giving her a kiss onthe cheek. She blushed. She then closed her eyes and fell into a deep, peace full sleep. Not much long later, I did too. "Ladies and Gay Gentle men I present to you, the new and aproved, Matt Larson!" Is what I woke up to. I slowly opened my eyed to see my adorable Matt looking even more adorable. Let's start from the bottom up, shall we. He was wearing: red and black checkerd,slip on, vans; light, tight jeans with a studed belt; black, half cut gloves with a red and black checkerd sweat band; and shirt that said "Man Whore", black eye liner coated his blue eyes, and last but not least his hair was Black. Yea I know BLACK. It looked sexy though. hehe. "Come on boy! Get your ass up and dressed. We have to get to school. We are all ready except you and we have 40 minutes" He said licking me cheek. It made me squeal and push him away. I wiped away his saliva off of my cheek and stood up. I streched up high and yawned. "Get me some clothes please. While I take a shower." "Aww!! I'm gonna miss the showery goodness" matt said pouting. I giggled and ran up the stairs. After my shower I ran down stairs, turned on the straightener, and gave Matt a peck on the lips. "So what am I wearing to day?" I asked. He pointed to the bed. I walked over and saw: a black and white striped,long sleeved, shirt; black tight pants; a piano style, studded, belt; and black and pink pinstripped shoes. I was about to drop my towel and begin to dress, but then I remembered I was sharing a living space with some one else. "Do you mind?" I said pointing to the door. "I've seen you with nothing on remember?" he said with a smirk. I blushed and began to get dressed. Afterwards I straightened my hair, and did my make up. "I'm ready" I said to Matt, showing off my cuteness. "Your missing somthing" he said looking over me. "What am I missing?" I asked confused "ME!" He giggle. I laughed and grabbed his hand. We ran up the stairs and walked out the door.We don't eat breakfast and mom is already at work. Today was like the other except I sat with Matt at lunch. On our way out of the building a girl stops Karma. "Hey, do you guys want to hangout withus?" The girl asks. Karma smiled "Yea, we will. I just have to call my mom to tell her we'll be later." she said taking out her cell phone. The girl walked over to me. "Hi, I'm Jenni. This is Aiden, my boyfriend, his twin brother Adam, and their older brother Ryan." Jenni said pointing to everyone "And you are?" "I'm Mikey. Thats Karma. This is my boyfriend Matt and his twin sister Madaline" I said smiling and pointing like her. "Oh awsome." She said preepy like. It was funny. She had blonde hair with black underneath, grey eyes, a small dress and half cut leggings underneath. Aiden had black hair, hazle eyes, dark blue tight jeans on, a white belt and a blackbelt, a white hoodie with a black shirt underneath, and a white bandana tyed around his right wrist .Adam had a beenie covering his blonde and black hair(like mine)hazle eyes also, a blackshirt with alot of stuff on it and fadded tight jeans. Ryan had brown hair, brown eyes, snake bites, a black hoodie with a "Dredson Dolls" shirt underneath. He had tons of braclits that couldn't reach his hands because of his pink and black fishnet coverd golves,and he had black and pinstriped girl pants on. "Adam, is really cute." she whisperd in my ear. "Yea, because he looks like me" I giggled."Go talk to him" She pushed me and walked over to Adam and they began to talk. "I always wanted to do that to someone." he said kissing me. I giggled as we were kissing. He pulled away ans pulled off his shirt, then mine. He started to kiss me again while I puled off his belt again. but this time I pulled down his jeans.(boxers.hes wearing boxers) He pulled my belt off and continued to kiss me. I slipped my tounge into his mouth. He moaned,which made me moan too. My pants started to hurt me as I was rising inside of them. He started to pull them off when I stopped him. "We should go to bed" He crawled off of me with a sad face. I was scared. I'm and virgin and I dont think he is. He put his arm around me. "good night, Mikey Bear" he whisperd. "good night, Matty Boo" I whisperd back and fell asleep.
Posted on 12/03/2006 4:48 PM Comments (5)
November 30, 2006(Mikey)//Baby Is This Love For Real?(Matt){slash}____5Mom knocked on the door alittle later. "Are you all eating dinner?" she asked with a smile. Every one ran out of my room, meaning yes. I just layed down on my bed.
"Are you sure? I got you a cake" she said. When she said cake I decided 'fine. I dont want everyone eating my cake ' so I follwed her down the stairs. We ate dinner then we ate the cake. It was chocolate with vanilla iceing. It was good, I guess. After wards I went into the bathroom, put my finger down my throte and got every bit of food out of my stomake. I wipped my mouth andwalked out the door. Matt was standing there, arms crossed and sad face. "Why, Mikey?" he asked quietly. "Why what, Matty?"I asked, know he heard me. "You are skinny enough, actually you are too skinny Mikey. You need to get help." "NO! I'm fine. No docter can help me." "Fine. Then what can help you?" "You can. All I need is you" "Mikey, we havnt been dating for a day yet." "I can't love you already?" "Thats's not what I meant." "Then Help Me!!" I demanded. He hugged me and started to cry. I couldn't help but cry too. I can't stand when other people cry, especially my boyfriend. We pulled apart, still holding eachother. He pecked me on the lips and we walked to where everyone was, the living room. "We are going for a walk, okay?"I said to no one inparticular. Everyone noddedand said "mhm" with their eyes plasterd to the T.V. Matt shrugged and we walked out the hand in hand. We got alot of stares a rude things yelled at us, but we just laughed when ever in happend. We walked to the nearest park. Matt went and sat at the bottom of the slide and I sat on his lap. "Why do you do it?" Matt asked embrassing me in a hug. "I dont know. It makes me feel better about myself. It's complicated" I said playing with my black braclet. "Everyone is complicated." Matt said taking my hand."Like me for example. Me and Maddie live alone in a RV. We never knew our dad and our mom was pregnant and left with her boyfriend. She left us money, the RV, and eachother. We had clothes too but thats pretty obvious. We decided to go far away from home and we did. We went as far as we could go until we ran out of gas here.Maddie and I just decided to go to school so we could at least learn somthing. And thats how we met. Some complications can lead to amazing things." He explained giving me a small kiss that I decided to deepen. We sat there on the slide making out until someone tapped my leg. I broke away from Matt to see who it was. It was a small girl with brown hair and brown eyes, and skinny little thing she was. "Excuse me mister, but why are you kissing a boy?"she said politely "Because I am in love with him. You'll understand when you get alittle older." I said hugging Matt and looking back to the little girl who was smileing. "Wow! she seemed to like you" "Why do you say that?" I asked with a smile. "Mikey, did you see that big smile on her face when you talked to her? You are so good with kids." "To bad I can't make my own children." I pouted. "You'll find a way. Sooner or later."Matt said "But we aren't concernd about kids right now. Are we?" "No I guess we arent." "I think we should head back to your place." Matt suggested. "Yeah, we dont anyone to worry." I said getting off of Matt's lap and we walked home.
Posted on 11/30/2006 9:00 PM Comments (4)
November 28, 2006((Mikey))//Baby Is This Love For Real?((Matt)){{slash}}_____4We were both fast asleep when I felt somthing wet touch my face. I swated it away, but then I jolted awake. Matt grumbled and scooted off of me. I looked over at Karma who was holding a little puppy in her arms. It looked like and Australian Sheperd. It was so adorable. It had grey-blue eyes. It was brown, tan, and white. It had a black bow around its neck.((Krysta:picuture on my page)) I kissed Matt on the cheek and got off of my bed. I went over to Karma and pet the puppy. "Happy Birthday, Mikey" she said trying to hug me with the puppy in her arms. "Is this my presant?" I asked stroking the puppy again. "Yea, Its the least I could do for my great brother" she said handing me the puppy. The bow had a tag on it that said "Ghost". "Ghost?" I said allowed kind of confused "That's his name silly" Karma replied kissing the top of Ghost's head. "Well, Ghost welcome to the wonderful mixed up family." I said to Ghost. I nearly dropped him when I felt hands wrap around my waist and a head go on my shoulder. "Ghost. He's cute" Matt's tired vioce whisperd into my ear. I smiled and put Ghost down, and turning to face Matt. "Dont we have school today?" "Oh yea. We missed it because I was out finding the right puppy at the shelter and I didnt want to wake you guys. You looked so peacful and cute." I shrugged and continued playing. Madaline walked in wearing some funky pajamas. It was a tank top that had a rib cage on it and the bottoms were like underwear and they had a pelvus or what ever on them and she had tall skeliton socks on. I smiled as she flopped down on my bed and went fast asleep. "Where's mom at?" I asked looking up at Karma. "She's at work. She'll be home soon, and she knows that we skipped and called the school with an excuse"Karma said going over and sitting by Maddie's peice full figure. I smiled at her and at Ghost who was asleep in my lap. Matt kissed me on the cheek and went out of my room. Wanting me to follow. I handed sleepy, little, Ghost to Karma and went into the hallway trying to find Matt. I found him sitting on the living room couch. I went over and sat on his lap. "So, I'm guessing you want to talk?" I asked looking into his eyes, seeming sad. "Oh Mikey don't be sad"Matt said putting an arm around me."Hopefully it will be good." "Hopefully?" i questioned again. "Well. I know we've only known eachother for 2 days now but-" "but?" "Will you be my boyfriend?"I almost started to cry. The boy of my dreams just asked me out on my birthday! and i got a puppy! "Yes. Ofcourse I will Matty" He kissed me lightly back, but it turned into a make-out secion with Matt onto of me again.One of his hands was rubbing my thigh and the other was on my chest. My hand were simple around his waits. He slipped his tounge into my mouth without warning so it made me moan into his mouth. He begane to get a bluge in this pants again and so was I. But then I heard the door open and I tried to get up to see who it was but Matt kept me down. "Micheal Fredrick Johnson! Don't be doing that on the couch!" my mom yelled. Matt jumped off of me and we ran upstairs. I heard my mom giggle, I'm guessing from out *coughs* (I think you know:hint hint bulges wink wink) We trampled into my room and were out of breath. Not from running but from the kiss. "God boys! Control them things." Karma and Maddie said. We blused and sat down. "I'm guessing moms home."Karma said with a smirk.I justs stared at her like 'no duh dip shit', and then it was silent. "Good news!" I said breaking the silence. Karma looked cofused."Matt and I are dating!"Karma's face lit up. "Oh My God! Congragulations!" she exclaimed hugging us both. Ghost liked my cheek congradulating me too, at least thats what i thought. We all sat in my room for awhile and played with Ghost for almost the rest of the day.
Posted on 11/28/2006 7:33 PM Comments (2)
November 27, 2006(Mikey)//Baby Is This Love For Real?(Matt)-{slash}____3
"AH HA!" i said alowed. I had forgoten eyeliner. So I lined my grey eyes and was finished. I flopped down on my bed when i heard a knock at the door. "Leave me alone." I grumbled out. "Mikey, Its me Matt." Matt! I smiled as I heard him speak. "Please let me in. I really want to see you." I trudged over to the door. When I opend it Matt pulled me into a huge hug. "Umm?" I whisperd He pulled away and said "Sorry I just feel so bad."he said, his eyes showing sadness. I just smiled and walked over to my bed and layed down. Matt shut the door and layed down next to me. He turned to face me and said. "I know we just met today but-" "but?" "But I really like you Mikey" he said sort of shakey "Y-you mean? Your gay?!" I said, just with alittle shock. He nodded and smiled. I let out a relieved breath and closed my eyes. The next thing I knew, Matt's lips were colided with mine. His hand went from my cheek, traveling down to my waist. This was the first time I had kissed a guy and I sure did like it. Matt pulled away and giggled at the fact that my eyes were still closed. I opend them and blushed. "I'm guessing thid was your first time kissing a guy?" Matt asked, gesturing to the bulge in my pants. I blushed even more. "It's okay. Dont be embaressed." I nodded and gave him a light kiss. I heard a creak. I looked up and saw Karma and the other girl in my door way. "Awwwww" they said in unison. "My little Mikey has a boyfriend." Karma said with a puppy dog face. "My little Matt is all grown up!" the other girl squilled. "Maddie. Im not little. Im older than you." Matt said to, Maddie."Im your Older Brother." "Yeah, only by 2 minutes." She pouted. Maddie had a very high pitched voice. You know, if you've seen The Rocky Horror Picture Show, the girl with the red hair. Like that. She had Black,past the shoulder, hair and purple eyes. Yes purple. It is cool looking. She's about Karma's hight. So not much shorter than me. She wore all black. She was wearing a Purple and black, Fearie, t-shirt and big, chainy TRIPP pants on and arm warmers. "Mikey, This is my, little, twin sister Madaline." matt said pointing over at Maddie."Madaline this is Mikey. Now you've met. Now shoo." "This is my house Matty" Karma said stomping her foot. "Karma, Maddie. GET OUT!" I demanded. They pouted and closed the door, but Karma opened it again and stuck out her tounge then left. I smiled at Matt and layed back down. He started to kiss me again, but this time he was on top of me. I felt a bulge rub against me. I tryed not to smile in the kiss, but failed. Matt smiled too, but continued kissing me. He brushed his tongue on my bottom lip and I opened my mouth letting his tounge explore. About five minutes late we broke apart, breathing hard. Matt layed his head down on my chest. "I can hear your heart beating" He whisperd into my chest. I smiled and stroked his hair. "Matt?" I asked "Yea?" he whisperd, sounding tired. "I'm glad we met." I said hugging him. He made a slight giggle. "Me too." And then he was gone. Into dream land. This is the best day of my life. I met the boy of my dreams, I got my hair re-done, I got my first kiss from a boy, and the best thing is we have carring sisters who are proud of us. I love my this boy.
Posted on 11/27/2006 7:46 PM Comments (2)
(Mikey)//Baby Is This Love For Real?(Matt) [slash]_____2
"Wow Mikey." she said alittle too loudley concidering she had her head on my shoulder"Your pretty strong for 100 lbs.!" she continued draping her arms over my shoulders. She was the only one who knew, until now because im telling you a complete stranger, that I'm bulimic. I have been bulimic since I was 13. I can't help it. I am stressed, at least im not cutting my self.I used to but I dont anymore. I have been through hell my whole life. Hopefully it will all end soon. Karma jumped off my back when we came to a Safeway. "Kar, What are you doing?" I asked with alittle smile. "I'll be right back, Mikey. Its a secret." she said running into the store. I went over to a bench and sat down. Lots of "punk" girls smiled at me, but I just looked away. I looked at my hand and was about to call Matt's number when Karma jumped onto my lap. I almost pushed her off in shock. "You can warn a guy!" I laughed. "Mikey, Come on we have to get home." Karma whinned "I have somthing I want to do" "Okay?" I said, questioning "Lets GO!!!" She demanded, pulling me behind her. Remember she's on speed. When we got to the front door of our house, Karma rumaged through her keys. She finally found the key.She unlocked the door and ran into the house, rapidly. She went straight for the bathroom. I just went into the livingroom and sat on the couch. About 15 minutes later I felt a bandana go over my eyes. I just smiled knowing what was about to go on. She pushed me into what I was guessing was the bathroom, which was correct. She took off the bandana when I was on the other side of the toilet and pushed me down so i was sitting on it just staring at the shower curtain, which wasn't very interesting by the way. I felt the cold liquid touch my scalp, thats when I knew that she was going to expirement on my hair, once agian. She pulled me off the toilet and wouldn't let me look in the mirror. We went into the living room, where Spongebob Squarepants was on. I fucking hate that show. After one episode of Spongebob Karma pushed me into the bathroom to wash the dye out. I hopped into the shower and wrinced the black coloring out, I could tell it was play the way it look purple running down my skin. I turned off the water and wrapped a towel around my waist and called Karma back into the bathroom. She came back with a blowdryer. I hate those things they burn my fucking face. The buzzer went off so I truged back into the bathroom for another shower. I could hear Karma on the phone with someone saying that they could come over. I had no idea who it was but she was giggling alot. I just ignored it and finished my shower. I took alittle longer to enjoy the water. I got out and hung the towel low on my hips and walked out the of the bathroom and into the living room, again. I was agusting my towel when I saw a girl and Matt, yes Matt, sitting on my couch. I was so shocked i dropped my towel. Everyone gasped. Karma ran up to me, picked up my towel and pushed me around the corner. She handed me, my towel and i ran up stairs. Crying from embaressment.
Posted on 11/27/2006 4:30 PM Comments (5)
November 18, 2006Baby is this Love for real?note: this is my first slash dont blame me if its bad. ok you can but tell me if i should continue
Chapter 1 Hi, I'm Mikey. No not Mikey Way. Micheal Jonhson, but its Mikey to you. Got it? Good. tight, too small, shirts, and all that jazz. I wear eyeliner and have my lip periced.I wear folded up bandana's over my pink and black hair, which somtimes is spiked up in the back. I guess I'm, pretty much, your average "emo" guy. been living with my best friend Karma for several years now. Not only is she my best friend, but shes my gardian angel. I know it may sound gay, but I am gay. Oh I didn't mention that did I? Well, I'm gay and thats that. Back to me and Karma's relationship. School. Karma lived down the street and they used to come over alot(Karma had a crush on me by the way) When my mom died my dad finally got the chance to do what he wanted to do to me since I was born. Beat me. Yes, my dad beat from age 4 to 10 and i was to scared to tell someone. Karma had noticed that my dad was screaming when she came up to our door one day. She said she heard me whimper and called the police. My dad was taken away and i almost was too. But Karma's mom, my mom now, took me in. They did alot of fighting over me with my dad. Me! I know who would want me. Mom finally won and thats how I am living with her. We dated when we were 12, but at 13, a few months after we started dating, I was starting to get feelings for guys and bored with girls.They never changed my last name so it is still Johnson while thiers is Knowls. I told mom and Karma that I was gay a few weeks after, they seem to mind. They were suprised though, because I was beaten by a man for 6 years then became atractted towards them. I am beat up at school for being gay. 8 out of 15 years of living isn't that bad right? Right? I guess it is bad. There are no other gay guys or "emos" at our school. Me and Karma are the only emos. There are plenty of goths but they kind of scare me how they barely ever laugh. School is my tourtue zone. The beating. The name calling. The bullshit that goes through-out the school. I hate it! Yes I know hate is a strong word, but I mean it. and my braclets. Karma, on the other hand, is wearing:Sparkly ballet flats, rainbow striped socks, a long sleeve, white, button up shirt, a rainbowstriped tie, a flowy,sparkly, fairy skirt, and a "Gay Pride" sweat band. She has the back of her hair in a "messy bun", which serves it's name well, and the front is down. He hair is natural, Platnum, blonde hair with black streaks EVERYWHERE. We walk up to the tourture zone. Karma attemps to twirl but trips. I run and catch her. She gave me a light kiss on the cheek and says standing there. I couldn't help but look all over him. He had on tight pants, pink belt, pink shoes, and a black shirt with a cool hot pink design on it. He had dark brown hair and the deepest, darkest blue eyes. He waved his hand infront of my face. "Hello? I asked you a question"he said what was the question? I was too busy staring in to your blue eyes. "What was your question?" i asked in an annoyed tone. Even though I wasn't annoyed at all. "I asked you, Is she your girlfriend?!" he said kind of harshly. "Who, Karma? No way." I said discusted. 'Not with you my dear' i thought to myself wanting to say it to him. "Karma? Right?" he said with a weird look on his face "I'm Matt by the way." he said grabbing my hand and walking on. why? "Ummm..Uh..Im Mikey." I said noticing all these people staring at us. I was so scared. My first day back and already have people thinking im a freak. Again. I heard an Announce ment for the Sophmores to go to the autotorium.I pulled out of Matt's grip and ran to Karma. We went to the autotorium and found our scheduals, and ran off to homeroom The day went by pretty fast considering i was sleeping through most of the lectures. I didn't ever notice if Matt was in any of my classes. I was walking down the hall to find my locker when I bumped into Matt. He smiled, it made me smile. We said nothing to eachother. He took out a pen and wrote somthing on my hand and continued on his way. I looked at my hand and it read: "Aww. My little Mikey is all gown up!" she said looking over my shoulder at my hand. I gave her a weird look. "You have a boyfriend. Your first boyfriend!!"
Posted on 11/18/2006 8:18 PM Comments (4)
November 13, 2006GOD!!!!IM SOO MAD!!!!!!! my friend Abbey broke all of my razors :'(
Posted on 11/13/2006 7:56 PM Comments (3)
October 27, 2006I JUST NOTICED...
I JUST NOTICED THAT "I DONT LOVE YOU" IS IN, LIFE ON THE MURDER SCENE. HAHA
Posted on 10/27/2006 8:08 PM Comments (1)
October 13, 2006sorry
i am stopping all of my stories for now. im sorry but i just am on HUGE writers block
Posted on 10/13/2006 2:20 PM Comments (0)
October 2, 2006Malle-2I'm guessing the last time you heard about me was when my mom was about 20-21, yea . 'Malle is turning 4 soon. She is getting so big. She has beautiful golden brown, hazel eyes. And the darkest hair.She wont let anyone cut it quite yet though.' Well all of that has changed. I still have dark hair but it is short and chopy, with blonde in some spots. My eyes, well they change color; in the summer they are hazle-ish, in the spring they are light blue, in fall they are golden, and in winter dark blue. Don't ask me how this all happens because i have no idea. I am 5'5, and am called anerexic at school. I have always been a vegiterian and i dont like to eat much. My mom dosnt know where i got the VERY skinniness from. Because, my mom isnt the skinniest person and niether ismy dad. But whatever. Now its time to tell my life story. June 6th, 4:15 am. first day out of school. I woke up awfully earily to my cell phone ringing. I rubbed my eyez to try and find im phone. I got out of bed and walked around looking, then tripped. I tripped on a pair of black, bondage pants. I ruttled through the pocked of the pants and found it. "hello?" i said in a frustreted, sleepy voice. "Hey Baby, whats up?"my newboyfriend, Jayson said as if it was an appropriate time for people to wake up. "Jay, its 4:20 in the fucking morning. I was planing on sleeping in today." "You can sleep in. Just look out your window." I was kind of scared to go the window, but i walked over to seeJayson sitting on the roof beneath my window. I hung up my cell phone and opened the window. Jayson, sneaked in.He hugged me and whisperd in my ear ,"You know i cant be with out you." I smiled and hugged him back. I let go of him, walked over to my bed and layed down. Jayson came over and layed with me. "David is going to come in here to wake me up at like 8:00 and hes gonna rush and tell my mom that i have a guy sleeping in my bed with me." i said before kissing him. Jay rolled over thinking my bed was bigger and fell onto the floor. There was a loud bump and i heard someone coming down the hall. I told Jayson to hide under my bed. I closed my eyes to pretend I was asleep and my mom walked in. "Is everything okay in here Mall?" my mom said walking over to me. I didnt budge. She came over, pulled the blanket over me and left. I went and looked under my bed, but no one was there. I was walking around my dark room, causously when Jayson picked me up by my waist from behind. I made a light squeek. Jayson layed me on the bed and layed ontop of me. "Not now. My mom is awake and i have a 12 year old brother alseep across the hall." i whispered in an agry-ish tone. Jayson frownd and layed next to me again. We accidentally fell asleep. Jay had his arm around my waist and we were really close, because my bed was very small.
Posted on 10/02/2006 8:12 PM Comments (3)
September 27, 2006continuing ?
Hi, My name is Malle, I am 16, and my mom is 32. Yes my mom was 16 when she had me. She is greatest mom ever. Her name is Krysta, and shes the coolest. My Dad. Well my dad is, Gerard Way. You know from the band My Chemical Romance. Yea. The last time I saw him was when i was 4, when he found out my mom was pregnant again. But with, Frank Iero's kid. My mom promised me a sister and what did i get? A brother. Yes I have a 12 year old brother, David. Hes really annoying. But i love him. I guess. He has light brown hair, like my mom, and he has blue eyes. I have no idea where he got blue eyes but whatever.
I live in the same house i have ALL my life. A very nice house in New Jersey. I bet your wondering what happend to my Grandmother. Well she decided she was going to move back to Maryland. My mom and her still keep in touch, so thats good. Oh yea, my mom is engaged. To Frank, and guess what else. Shes pregnant again, Wooh. How fun will this be! As you can tell, Im not very excited. This is because i was promised and sister, and got a brother. And my mom also hasn't talk to m father in 5 months, and I am being forced to call ,Frank, Dad. How acward is this. Not seeing my dad in 12 years and having to call his best friend, Dad. And Frank is only 31. 31! my mom is older than him. I know, I know. I said that my mom is 'the greatest mom ever' but other times she can be a pain in my ass.
Posted on 09/27/2006 9:29 AM Comments (2)
Newsyou all know how my first story ended as a dream right? well i am continuing the story as if it werent a dream but it is now 12 years later and through Malle's Point of View. you know, the little 4 year old who was a smart ass(lol) yea. Thats the news and i am about to post the first half of it and tell me if it should be a continueous story. <3 krysta
Posted on 09/27/2006 9:26 AM Comments (0)
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